There used to be so much noise

so much so that I wouldn’t be able to concentrate

it would follow me everywhere

I was constantly trying to block it out

which would sometimes work

but it would always come back

and whenever I would try to listen to it

it would be too loud

so loud that it would take over

I would feel like I was drowning

but I continued to try

try listening to it

and gradually it got quieter

there is still noise

and some days it will be loud

maybe someday it will stop

but for now

I am still learning about it

the noise.